Poignant

15 Apr

Today I am full of thoughts and feelings.  Some are good and some are bad, but most are neutral things, wisps of something or other floating around, populating the spaces in my head.

The world is such a funny place.  I made my friend Rachel cry the other day when I paid for her Starbucks and, in response to her objection, handed her one of the beautiful cards that Amy made for me.  I would have liked it if I could have done it for a stranger, but I haven’t yet figured out how to do it if you’re not in the drivethrough… so I am still trying to think of other ways to make use of them.

I just feel like I have been given so much.  Thanks to Aodin, I know something about love and happiness that other people don’t know, and so how can I not share it with people?  If I don’t open up and give some of it away, if I don’t share it with the people around me, then I am holding back something beautiful from a world that is so much in need of beauty.

Speaking of this sort of thing, I think I am going to start working on a website for Project Flutter over this coming weekend.  I won’t be terribly mobile, so I figure it will be a good time to get something started.  Let me know if you guys can recommend a site host that is free but will allow for people to register and such.  If there’s nothing free, I could probably swing a small fee to keep it up and running.  I will also, of course, gladly take help with the design if someone is willing to donate some skillz!

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I am more afraid of this surgery than I am letting myself admit.  I keep saying it’s no big deal, but I don’t think that’s really what I am feeling.  I can’t wait to meet with my counselor again on Thursday and get a chance to talk this out a little.

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In other news, I will move on to Book Review #35.

This book was unexpectedly fabulous, probably one of the best I have read in a long time.  There was a lot of art dealt with in it, with one main character an art appraiser while another is a collector.  I loved the descriptions and the character work was great too.  I would really recommend this one.

Verdict: A

Next:

I started this one on the bus this morning.  I can already tell that it’s got a slight pro-paganism leaning, which is pretty common among scholars of ancient history and religion.  All the same, I am hardly a fundamentalist Christian, so I am going to see how it goes.  I am generally a little put off by books that have a clear bias, but I think I can handle this one since I agree with some of it and an utterly neutral on some of it as well.  It’s well written at least…

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3 Responses to “Poignant”

  1. Amy April 15, 2008 at 6:43 pm #

    I am glad you got to use a card! That makes me happy. You can use it when you go out to eat to leave a little extra on the tip, at the grocery store when someone is a little low on cash, at the starbucks inside, just give them 5 bucks and hope like hell it covers the next persons order.

    There are tons of ways, I have yet to come up with all of them but friends and family are always great to use them on!

    I am thinking of you for your surgery day to go well. It will and you will be fine!

    I think maybe I might have to read your reviews and pick a few books for myself!

    Take care much love and peace, Amy

  2. CLC April 15, 2008 at 7:24 pm #

    I will be thinking of you praying that all goes well with the surgery. I would be scared too. Geez, I was scared about my procedure last week and that’s nothing.

  3. Antigone April 18, 2008 at 8:58 am #

    How do you find the time to read so much?!? I need to catch up. 🙂

    And I really need to see if I can buy some of those cards from Amy.

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