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You guys? My baby is walking. What’s that you say? She can’t be walking because she is just a tiny, tiny baby? Yeah…
You see that? She is walking. And she went from zero to across the room in ONE DAY. Yesterday morning all she could manage was to sort of throw herself the three steps between the couch and the chair. She was sort of walking, but mostly falling. Then by lunch time, she’s doing the above drunken walk from the table to the couch. By dinner time, she was making it across the room. Today, I fully expect her to be out doing laps.
I don’t know where the time is going. I have no idea what has happened to the last year, and now she’s walking? God, before I know it she’ll be in school. It totally thrills/terrifies me to imagine her climbing on to that big yellow school bus. Until then, I have to figure out a way to keep her entertained and still get work done at home! I am totally open to suggestions if anyone has tips for working from home while wrangling a now fully mobile one year old…
She’s a challenge, in a really good way. She gets bored at the drop of a hat. It was raining at the beginning of the week, so on Monday and Tuesday we didn’t get to go out for our usual morning walks. And by Tuesday midmorning? She was a screaming mess. It was KILLING her to sit in the house! Now that she’s sort of walking, and it looks like our car *might* be fixed this weekend, I can’t wait to get out of the house with her and let her explore the park, the neighborhood beach, the playground… Any tips there too? What’s the best way to let a one year old, VERY unstable little walker explore these new places? Helmet and pads? Full sumo suit?
Clearly, I’m in uncharted territory here, and I am frequently at a loss as to what to do. I worry that she watches too much television (excluding the day of total meltdown this week, she watches 15 minutes in the morning, another 15 in the late afternoon, and then sort of watches whatever Aaron puts on when he gets home, though she seems uninterested in his shows) and I worry that I don’t pay enough attention to her. I am trying to figure out a balance. I feel like there IS enough time in the day to get it all done, but that I just haven’t quite mastered how to figure it all out. I worry that I’m not disciplined enough, that I spend too much time online doing frivolous things, that I too often need a mental break. I feel like I should have my days regimented, although in fairness I’m pretty sure even the idea of a schedule is ridiculous until your kid is… eighteen? twenty five?
Truly though, as much as it sounds like I’m floundering, in a lot of ways I have never been happier. I have certainly never been healthier, and the exercise and (mostly) good food are making huge differences in my mood and energy, plus they are setting exactly the right example for my munchkin. My marriage is wonderful, better every day. I love the work I’m doing right now, and if I can manage to stick with it a little bit longer, it has the potential to really grow into something real and big and wonderful. As I get older I realize that I really like ME, which is a nice thing to be sure of, and I’m looking forward to my thirties. Our house is nice and safe and warm, and we’re slowly making tiny improvements that we hope will mean selling it for a profit once we’re ready to move on. Life is good. Confusing, strange, stressful, overwhelming, ridiculous, and good.
I know I’ve been lax in posting here, and I swear I’m trying to make up for it. Do you still read? Is anyone out there? If you’re reading and just lurking, leave a comment please! I’d love to know who’s still hanging on to this mega brain dump that is my blog!!! And if you’re feeling silly, please do go and enter this giveaway. The calendar is freaking hilarious, and it’s so worth the time it will take you to leave a comment. I got my calendar the other day and it’s amazing.
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